I would sell my soul if it meant I could move away from home, preferably to Brooklyn, have an apartment with my best friends, be in an affordable graduate Psych program, have all my student loans disappear, and be making a reasonable income.

Move to Brooklyn? - Can't afford it. Have no reason to live there.
An affordable Psych program? - Only at SUNY schools aka Stony Brook, which would mean I'd still live at home (and affordable just means it will do the least damage to my already massive student debt).
....Psych programs in Brooklyn? - Not a clinical program in the city for anything less that 30,000 a year (x5 years for a PhD program is enough to make me throw up).
Disappearing student loans? - Not until I'm done paying them off in what will probably be 2050.

Don't mistake this for pessimism. This is all fact. I'm doing pretty well at keeping my mind in the PRESENT and living life despite how often all of this leaks into my consciousness though. You never know what the future holds! All I can do is focus on what I want and make decisions to move me towards it.

i am living at home and going to stony brook, which means i'm attending my third college orientation on tuesday. i have to register for classes, organize my schedule, figure out a work schedule, and buy a car. i can't wait to have a car, but it's proving to be just as challenging as i anticipated. i am the happiest i've been in probably two years, despite the fact that almost nothing is going how i'd like it to. i do, however, still have a lot of work to do.

my goals for 2010 are:
- travel somewhere - ideally this means visiting malora in london over spring break, but this is only going to happen if my finances allow it
- get in serious shape - this means changing my lifestyle... dad has promised a gym membership, which he still hasn't followed through with, but as soon as that card is in my hand its becoming part of my schedule... permanently. i want to be comfortable as myself every day and i miss feeling good after exercise.
-get involved in school and with my major. this means getting a really awesome research assistant job. hopefully that guy emails me back.
-become financially comfortable. this means organizing my money (savings, spending money, etc) and establishing a good budget while still being able to do and have things i want.