On the car ride home I realized that I used to be one of those people who ignored the bad in things. Now I'm one of those people who ignores the good. I don't wanna fucking be either one. 

Also I related to those two movies so much its ridiculous. Despite their humor, Role Models and Zack and Miri have cute stories. 

And seeing that girl today was one of the shittiest things that has happened in a really long time... and it IS a big deal. It sucked. Things that suck for me and make me upset ARE a big deal. 

aesldcjkf;aewdklcjsfvm,s;ldckgjv my brain is nonstop and even if i can keep my feelings in check better my brain still doesn't stop and i just want A BREAK

Remember when you made me that nice CD?

I am so back and forth it's retarded. 

I think it really sucks that I don't want to talk to my friends about my present "romantic situation" (for lack of a better term) because I just feel like they will get mad, or judge me, or judge the situation, or talk shit, or repeat some biased version of whatever I say. That doesn't really apply to everyone, but it does to some. It's not really about "caring what other people think." It's about caring what my friends think and expecting them to know better than to just pass some stupid judgement. Oh well. 

But then again maybe they are right. I guess someone will be proved wrong in time. 

On another note, I feel like I have completely emerged from the sadness cave. No major changes have occurred in my life, other than my dawgie dying (RIP Tucker :[... ), but I feel great nonetheless. I'm finally no longer living for the future, but instead for the present. I can enjoy every day and find peace in my time alone. 

The cold air is absolutely terrible but the smell of winter and the holiday season make it somewhat bearable. I have an entire different appreciation for hot coffee in the winter time... especially with French Vanilla creamer. I am looking forward to making Thanksgiving dinner and sangria at Pratt on Saturday. I am looking forward to going home on Tuesday and spending (a little) time with my favorite friends. I am not looking forward to the 5 page paper, 500-word spanish composition, and extra credit presentation I need to completely before that. 

Speaking of the cold air, I need boots and a winter jacket. This coat isn't cutting it. 

Monday: 

12:30-1:45 - Personality Lecture

2:00-3:15 - Spanish

4:55-6:10 - Perception Lecture

Tuesday:

12:30-1:45 - Developmental Theory & Human Motivation

2:00-3:15 - Spanish

Wednesday:

11:00-12:15 - Personality Recitation

12:30-1:45 - Personality Lecture

3:30-4:45 - Perception Recitation

4:55-6:10 - Perception Lecture

Thursday:

(Same as Tuesday)

Friday:

No Class :)

I'm so pleased with my schedule for next semester.