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i want to get the thoughts out of my brain but i can't find the words to do so. i just feel so optimistic and i'm not used to it. the pessimistic part of me that i have pushed all the way to the back of my mind is trying to scream at me to stop being so positive but i'm tuning it out. the way i was never made me happy, so i'm trying something new. don't give me a reason to regret this.